Life is a wheel and can change in the blink of an eye

By Alessandro Carosi

What is death ? It is a mystery that we aren’t allowed to understand except the fact that we will die, someone believes that we will transform in something else that there is an after life, others thinks that death will brings just nothingness, I don’t know what is next, I feel that life continue after the body is gone but are just feelings, I’m not bother any longer about it and just living life in the best way I can day by day but one day I will be facing the fact that any day could be the last.

My mother had a heart attack and at the age of 76 years old she is thinking about death every day and after this event thoughts about the end getting stronger and stronger, I can’t help to relieve those feelings and the fear, Our life could end anytime, today we feel strong and healthy and tomorrow sick and sad about the upcoming closure of this journey, life is unpredictable and we don’t know what is going to happen tomorrow, next week, next year, 2 weeks ago I was in a sort of heaven on Earth, in relationship with a girl that liked me a lot, enjoy my job, chatting everyday with my mother and every piece of puzzle following into place and then in just a couple of weeks, my best friend in London told me that she had a surgery cause doctors found she had breast cancer fortunately got on time, I broke up with the girl I was dating and her grandmother died for heart attack then my mother heart attack, out of blue a good friend had a nervous breakdown and we ended up having a huge argument, a lot of unexpected expenses and now the job I was enjoying stressing me out and need to leave Edinburgh to go back to Italy to look after my mother.

What all of this is teaching me ? Cause I can fall in the illusion of the unfair life or trying to learn The lessons beneath the surface

There are many lessons to learn for me:

1 – That over drinking coffee affecting my mental health and must to put a stop on it

2 – That life can change in the blink of an eye so to be sure to make the best of my health and time

3 – A reminder that we are just temporary here and the people we care can be taken away from us at any time, so forgive quickly and love more

You chose, happiness over sadness, forgiveness over anger, learning lessons over repeating them, I don’t know if life is a bless or a curse but I know that I can, we can control what we feel within and how we respond to what is happening without.

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